From my kitchen window this morning I looked into the back woods and saw something pure white sitting in the center of where two fallen trees intersected on the ground. And it wasn’t moving. I was so intrigued I quickly grabbed my slippers and walked out on the deck to get a closer look. Then I smiled.
Angel the feral cat, had found me within months of moving in seven years ago. My first reaction was–Please God give me a bit longer before I have to deal with the feral cats of the neighborhood!
Angel seemed an obvious name as she was a beautiful long-haired white cat with brilliant blue eyes. Since she wasn’t neutered she always had admirers; and I soon learned her name wasn’t a fit for her personality. If there was another cat around she’d go from a casual, grooming position to instantaneously flying into a midair 10-15’ jump and land directly on top of them in full combat mode. The other cat never even knew what hit it! You should have seen the horrified look on my face the first time I saw this side of her personality.
She easily went into the havaheart trap and I had her spayed and released her back outside. It was months later when my (former) husband came home from work one day and said ‘Hey, I just saw Angel being let out of the house a few doors down.” Oops. It was actually wonderful knowing she had a family and a warm place to call home. I’ve only seen her a few times since I released her—not that I blame her for not wanting to come a-callin.
However this morning I felt there was a deeper meaning to the vision she gifted me with. Seeing Angel positioned so stoically at the ‘crossroads’ of two trees in the woods took my breath away as I realized it symbolizes where I am in my life.
Here we are at the season of the year when all of the leaves have been released; and we are now able to see into the woods more clearly things that we would not have before. A month ago, I would not have been able to see this beautiful vision. I had, like the trees, needed to release and let go of what no longer served me– to be able to see the beauty within.
I felt it was a sign… a symbol of where I am in my life…at a crossroads trying to decide which direction to take… seeing more clearly within myself and having many choices to make about next steps. Since I have cleared old beliefs, would I have the courage to step through my fears with my business and personal life to allow in what I wanted? Would I know the direction to take?
All of this flashed through my mind as I looked at this beautiful Angelic vision in the woods… this gift… knowing that it is indeed time to make a choice to take a step forward. To love myself enough to let more of what I truly desire into my life. Just at that time, she turned and looked up at me and then I knew. It IS time. I am safe. I am ready. Everything will be ok.
Thank you Angel. Thank you God. Thank you to the Universe for being so magical.
Feeling grateful,
Tammy
